2022.01.18 07:08 BelphegorDuck help, I cant see funny sprays anymorr
2022.01.18 07:08 worthlessruined sleep
I’ve always struggled with insomnia but ever since he hurt me I’ve been completely fucked. I used to be able to take something and fall asleep at least, but now it never works. I’ve had six hours of sleep in the past two days. This is a pattern that can go on for weeks. Until it shifts to me being so exhausted I sleep day and night. Sometimes bud helps. Sometimes it triggers the change between not being able to stay awake entirely though. I get fucking crazy when I’m sleep deprived though. I’m so emotionally volatile I’ve cried multiple times since waking up at a really fucked up hour because apparently the only time I can fall asleep is during the day. I have to go to class every day in a week. I’m so fucked. I wish I could hire someone to hold a pillow over my head until I passed out every night.
I’ve been having weird thoughts like I can’t sleep because he’s awake too and planning to hurt me and it doesn’t even make any sense. It’s been almost a year since he or one of his evil rape excusing friends sent me a message saying to shut up or I would be dealt with. Like dealt with? What does that even mean? I was so angry I confronted him and he didn’t do or say anything back, but months later I became gripped with terror.
I don’t know where it’s coming from. I was scared at first obviously but then the anger swept it away. Why now? He can’t find me, I even voted in my old town so he couldn’t find my address with voter records. I haven’t heard from him, I haven’t seen him, I haven’t even mistaken someone else as him for a while.
We had this weird which quickly turned into a hellish connection and I’ve had this feeling right before he came to my work or ran into him. I had a dream about him during what must have been the same week he wrote an unsent project letter to me. He apologized in the dream and in the letter he wrote he considered it, but decided I didn’t deserve it. About the way he treated me during the relationship not the rape, he won’t ever admit that part.
I was listening to a song on repeat with a song title that during the same time period correlated with something in his life I had zero way of knowing and didn’t find out about for half a year. Like that one is definitely a coincidence but it freaked me the fuck out - I was so obsessed with this song I made the exact corresponding part a password I know for sure I set during that time period.
Something ALWAYS happens when I get this way. Only this time I’ve felt this way for months and nothing has. At one point it even switched to a period of thinking he was about to apologize and then went back to feeling like something terrible was about to happen.
I know I sound fucking crazy. I don’t have any family history of schizophrenia or anything like that. Maybe I started believing all these things cos I’m constantly sleep deprived. I don’t know.
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2022.01.18 07:08 CoconutCompetitive59 Blessed...
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2022.01.18 07:08 Lxlpn Emily’s Uncle?
I have watched friends many of times. Used to watch it when it was actually on air but it just noticed that Emily’s uncle, the one Rachel worked with who asked if Rachel could take Emily out to show her around New York, was not at the wedding?! 🤔
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2022.01.18 07:08 moonliiiiiit I miss my queen so much 3. Poppy Sim is by @jmojellybae on Tumblr.
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2022.01.18 07:08 treefox Discovery is the only known Starfleet ship equipped to be a pizza cutter
2022.01.18 07:08 chupa-the-beast I mean my my baby bros can't understand it
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2022.01.18 07:08 zippercreatemy Dr Norman Swan is in TikTok helping us to understand Covid 19
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2022.01.18 07:08 truthofafrica Ballon d’Or 2021 : la malhonnêteté de Lionel Messi mis à nue, Lewandowski avait bien raison
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2022.01.18 07:08 elysiannnnnn LF new manager. I am an experienced Axie player. I reached 2354mmr last season using this poison team however my past manager sell his axies. Also, I played double plant and classic BBP, both reached 2kmmr+. I'll be glad if you will drop a msg here or in my discord: elysian#6105
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2022.01.18 07:08 angladi e Air fried green beans #shorts
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2022.01.18 07:08 coffeeislife_SA This sub has changed my life in so many ways.
Besides the obvious of quitting drinking, this sub has made me want to change so many other aspects of my life. After managing to quit drinking, it's getting easier to break other addictions.
As of today, I'm 2 weeks off of Red Bull/all energy drinks. I started drinking them daily 12 years ago. Over time, the daily amount grew. Before quitting, I was drinking 2 liters of Red Bull daily.
I am now down to just 3 cups of coffee a day and coping fine. For the first time in my life, I'm drinking at least 3 liters of water a day.
Thanks to everyone in this sub for their support on more than just alcohol. This sub has helped my personal growth in so many ways.
I owe you all a debt of gratitude I could never repay.
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2022.01.18 07:08 douchebagusmaximus Ebenezer Scrooge
2022.01.18 07:08 Historical-Guide-216 میدونستم مرحله بعدی زامبیا هستند
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2022.01.18 07:08 TheRealTrailblaster are there security vulnerabilities over shareing ports?
Hello I'm very new to all this networking stuff and I'm not ganna pretend that I'm a expert. I've heard that shareing all your ports is bad for security however isnt this what zerotier does? So what I'm asking is if I add people to my network am I exposing myself to a security vulnerability? And if so is there a way to only let some ports be shared?
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2022.01.18 07:08 pweetybird To all the bitches, what makes a bad bitch?
2022.01.18 07:08 DumbAsASpoon What happened to OSRS YouTuber Seerz?
2022.01.18 07:08 Ros127 Not seeing your opponents class during mulligan can get worse
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2022.01.18 07:08 altaccigz Pain in dreams?
I’ve seen this talked about a lot on here before but it’s so weird I just wanted to share my experience. I once had a dream where my chest was being ran over by a motorcycle and I could feel each of my ribs being crushed to pieces. It hurt so bad that I could start to feel myself waking up but not fully? Like I was half awake but still dreaming I don’t know if it was sleep paralysis or something but I could feel the pain irl and when I fully woke up my chest felt heavy like i was nearly suffocating
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2022.01.18 07:08 DittoMario school partys be like
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2022.01.18 07:08 Winter-Ad4959 Here's a recovery question I haven't seen asked.
How does one deal with gambling addiction and quitting compulsive gambling as a 21 year old? I say this because although I was already in Vegas for the holidays, I'll probably be back there or other casino vacatione for the birthdays of friends at least 2-4 times in the next year. My intention is not to never gamble again but rather exclude it from being something I even think about or desire in a situation other than vacation or celebration. Any ideas or advice is greatly appreciated.
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2022.01.18 07:08 redit_user1212 can't touch chin to chest.
18 year old male.
I can't touch my chin to my chest. No other symptoms and no neck stiffness. Google has diagnosed me with meningitis and death so now I'm freaking out lol.
No other symptoms and I've been vaccinated for meningococcal disease about 4 years ago.
What could this be? Can't be meningitis right since I'm vaccinated and have no other symptoms?
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2022.01.18 07:08 pisksrpeter Enjoying a walk in the forest.
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2022.01.18 07:08 vagga2 How to Adjust a Laser Pistol? - Modern Pentathlon
2022.01.18 07:08 RowdyGambino23 Drew some carnival folk
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